Food Diary
Weetabix
baked potato, baked beans and cheese
murray mint
salad
lamb chop
potato salad, coleslaw
Maltesers

FitBit 
On charge and then forgot to wear it but didn't have much exercise

Food Diary
Weetabix
2 slices bread and butter
banana
bits pizza
salad
potato salad
coleslaw
bread and butter

FitBit (at 9.12 pm)
15,713 steps
6.57 miles
2,023 calories

Tuesday 
Food Diary
Weetabix
muffin
3 ryvita
banana
crisps
bread 
salad
Burger
coleslaw
couscous
2 muffins

FitBit (at 10.03 pm)
13,832 steps
5.81 miles
2,027 calories

Sunday
Food Diary
Weetabix
cherries
3 ryvita and butter
1 dairylea triangle
chunk french bread
roast lamb dinner
gooseberry crumble and custard
orange

FitBit (at 10.00 pm)
14,451 steps
6.04 miles
2,021 calories

Monday
Food Diary
Weetabix
Ice cream cone
chunk french bread and butter
banana
nectarine
about to have a kiwi and later will have beans on toast and an orange

FitBit (at 7.57 pm)
14,468 steps
6.07 miles
2,053 calories

Food Diary
weetabix
banana
4 ginger biccies (124 calories each)
cherries
salad
steak
coleslaw

FitBit (at 8.29 pm)
12,973 steps
5.43 miles
1,847 calories

Mid-morning yesterday I put my FitBit on charge and forgot to put it on again. Cherries continue to be my downfall but when they are so fat and juicy and delicious a girl's just got to eat them.

Food Diary
Weetabix
banana
(If I stopped here all would be well)
3 ryvita 
2 boiled eggs
cherries
cherry tomatoes
cherries
salmon
green veg
roasted tomatoes
gnocchi
cherries
orange

FitBit
Probably about 9,000 steps

Weigh-in Day
I seem to be approximately the same weight as last time but what that is is anybody's guess. Even after changing the batteries. Husband came to read it to prove I was just being silly - but he couldn't read it either. Our best guess was about:
140 lbs

Will definitely buy a new scales.

Food Diary
Weetabix
2 fajitas
cherries
murray mint
5 tiny biscuits
chinese takeaway
1 orange

FitBit (at 9.21 m)
7,234 steps
3.03 miles
1,604 calories

I haven't quite made my 10,000 steps today but I did spend some time pushing a pushchair which as we already know doesn't register as steps so I'm not going to worry too much.

Food Diary
Weetabix
banana
cherries
2 slices bread and marmite
pieces pizza crust
salad
baked potato
coleslaw and cheese
cherries
1 flapjack

FitBit (at 9.50 pm)
9,167 steps
3.83 miles
1,866 calories

A good walk and some gardening today. That's my justification for my flapjacks.

Food Diary
Weetabix
Crunchy nut flakes
date flapjack
beans on toast
2 murray mints
date flapjack

FitBit (at 10.00 pm)
15,114 steps
6.32 miles
2,142 calories

I am drawing a veil over the weekend. Two parties and a weekend away = too much good food.

And it's still impossible to read the scales. I either lost half a stone - definitely not! - or gained one pound. Must check the batteries.

Food Diary
Weetabix
2 bowls crunch nut flakes
1 nectarine
lump cheese
spag bol

FitBit (at 7.44 pm)
11,009 steps
4.66 miles
1,716 calories

Bad Day No. 123

Food Diary
Weetabix
rhubarb 
banana
cherries
2 murray mints
banana
lamb
bread roll
salad
coleslaw
potato salad
Too much dessert to list (Rhian's party)

FitBit
Not bothering to look as spent most of the day sitting in chair in hairdresser's and rest not wearing FitBit

Seasonal fruit is my downfall ...

as well as the ice cream and mayo and cheese and ...

Food Diary (for today as opposed to the earlier one that was for yesterday)
weetabix
2 small slices quiche
salad and cherry tomatoes 
little blob mayo
several Korean cookies
rhubarb
cherries
spag bol
strawberries
raspberries
ice cream

FitBit (at 10.02 pm)
5,221 steps
2.18 miles
1,476 calories

Food diary
Weetabix
banana
kiwi
crunchy nut flakes
cherries
bits pizza crust
baked potato
salad
coleslaw
cheese
orange

FitBit (just before bed)
4,888 steps
not many miles
not many calories

Just the usual

Food Diary
Weetabix
Crunchy nut flakes
banana
lump cheese
macaroni cheese
peas
small piece rhubarb cake
stewed rhubarb

FitBit (10.34 pm)
12,793 steps
5.43 miles
1,922 calories

When exercise doesn't count

Food Diary
weetabix
cherries
crunchy nut flakes
cherry tomatoes
baked beans on toast
grated cheese

FitBit (at 7.42 pm)
5,744 steps
2.45 miles
1,448 calories

I wasn't wearing it for a while this morning while it charged but I did Thrive circuits tonight so I'm sure I've actually used more calories than that.

Fat or sexy?

'I'm fat and horrible!'
'No, you're not,' says Husband. 'You're gorgeous and sexy.'

Whom to believe? Me or Husband. 

Obviously I want to believe Husband but then I look in the mirror or grab a handful of belly flab and groan again, 'No, I'm not gorgeous!'

Husband loves me just the way I am, however that is. I love me when I'm slim and confident. Yet sometimes I can feel good just as I am. And then I'll say, 'Blow it! Let's eat cake.'

But then by bedtime or maybe sooner I'm berating myself for my weakness and I am returned to the pit of self-... hatred is too strong a word - imagine me looking down my nose at myself as I would at ... no, I hope I wouldn't look down my nose at anybody else (unless I'm being really honest when I'd say except maybe a contestant on Big Brother or something similar) the way I do at myself. 

Why do I do this to myself? Is it primarily a woman thing? Getting all deep and meaningful, is it because my father didn't want to know me leaving me with a sense of not being good enough as I was?

More importantly how do I stop doing it? How do I find satisfaction with myself?

Answers on a postcard, please. Or in the Comments box.

Not good but not horrendous

Food Diary
Weetabix
cherries
cherry tomatoes
crunchy nut flakes
banana
handful cheerios
salad
salmon, prawns, half an egg, grated cheese
orange

FitBit (at 9.55 pm)
13,060 steps
5.48 miles
1,945 calories

Weigh In week 7

The digital display on the scales is temperamental and this morning i couldn't properly read a crucial figure. Either I have lost a lot of weight (very unlikely) or I have gained even more (far more likely after two weeks of too much food and not enough exercise). So if I opt for the more realistic number I now weigh more than I did when I began the diet. 

It is very disheartening that two bad weeks carry more weight than five moderately good ones.

147.6 lbs

Food Diary
Weetabix
banana
Honey Nut Cornflakes
several cheese straws
2 squares chocolate
cawl and dumplings
orange

FitBit (at 10.03 pm)
15,742 steps
6.74 miles
2,096 calories

And there's more

Food Diary
Weetabix
Special K
banana
flake
lump cheese
cawl and dumplings

FitBit (at 10.30 pm)
15,297 steps
6.44 miles
1,991 calories