Bother, bother, bother!

Put my FitBit on to charge and forgot to wear it for my walk so will have to guess.

Food Diary
Weetabix (getting predictable)
salad
spoonful coleslaw
grated (therefore less calories than a lump of) cheese 
about 12 cherry tomatoes (okay, maybe 20; they are very yummy.)
1 banana (I can't remember when I ate it but I'm sure I did)
salmon
4 sort of roasted potatoes
broccoli
2 glacier fruits
1 Murray mint

FitBit (at 10.17 pm)
1,926 steps + about 6,000 for walk + about 1,000 for other = 8,926
0.81 miles
1,268 calories

First Weigh Day

Weight 141.6 lbs
Fat  35.7%

A week ago I weighed 146 lbs so that's a loss of about 4.5 lbs, which is excellent! If I read the scales correctly that is. They're digital and something, possibly me dropping them, has made it difficult to read the numbers properly. And I blame that for the increase in body fat: 1.5% because that isn't logical.

Food Diary
Weetabix
Murray mint
banana
3 ryvita and butter
4 cherry tomatoes
banana
1 glacier fruit
2 slices pizza
2 spoonfuls coleslaw
1 orange

FitBit (at 8.36 pm)
10,820 steps
4.52 miles
1,705 calories

Why I'm not speaking to my FitBit

Must add my Food Diary for today before I accidentally 'forget' some of it. A bad day as we had barbecue with daughter and family and they'd been to the cinema and brought some popcorn home with them. And the children had pizza for lunch. Neither of which should affect my diary ...

Food Diary
Weetabix (so far so good)
2 bites of pizza
small bowl leftover chicken curry
half an apple leftover by GrandSon2
2 handfuls popcorn
about 10 cherry tomatoes
1 mini falafel
I arancini
ultimate beef burger
3 slices cheese
spoonful fried onion
salad
spoonful coleslaw
Diet coke
NO bread! Not as much as I would have eaten normally so good on that front.

I am not speaking to my FitBit. We took the grandchildren to the Marina for a walk this morning and then this afternoon I took GrandDaughter2 out in her pushchair for a walk. Coming back I thought, 'I must have nearly reached 10,000 steps,' but on looking at FitBit I discovered I'd only done 7,789. I carried on walking but counting my steps and when I'd done 100 I checked FitBit again: 7,818.

So according to FitBit I'd taken 70 fewer steps than I'd actually done! I blame it on the fact that I was pushing the pushchair so my arm wasn't swinging: it's possible to fool FitBit by just swinging your arm back and for without taking any steps.

So by my reckoning if that was the way it was working, in the afternoon, I must have actually walked about an another 4,000 steps. But I won't include those in my total. I won't lower myself to those levels. Not just yet anyway.

It's weigh day tomorrow so we'll see what we shall see.

FitBit (at 6.51 pm)
11,896 steps
4.97 miles
1,816 calories

Forgot to add

Forgot to list yesterday's food and fitbit.

Food Diary
Weetabix
1 banana
chicken sandwich
1 blob of mayonnaise
5 cherry tomatoes
1 peach
2 glacier fruits
steak
salad
large blob mayonnaise
1 orange

FitBit (at 10.38 pm)
9,101 steps
3.82 miles
1,701 calories

And Friday's.
Food Diary
Weetabix
1 glacier fruit
stir fry veg and 3 ryvita
1 banana
1 Murray mint
handful Cheerios
chicken and spinach curry
rice
broccoli
1 orange

FitBit (at 8.46 pm)
11,947 steps
5 miles
1,764 calories

Because my husband loves me

Husband loves me very much.

I am very glad of that. The trouble is he loves my flab too.

Not too much of it, you understand, but enough to cuddle and get hold of. 'Women don't understand what men like,' he says. 

I suppose that's true. As I noted, it was men who grumbled at me last time I successfully lost weight. (I'm sure there are feminists out there objecting fiercely to my words but I am me and think and write like this and I am not above using my feminine wiles to get things done for me. But that's probably the subject for another post on another blog.)

I look in the mirror - on the rare occasions I dare - and I see my ugly white flabby belly and hips. I see nothing attractive at all. And I hate it. So when offered, for example, a piece of cake, I should have the incentive to say no ... but then I think, 'So what's a piece of cake? Husband loves me as I am,' and my hand reaches out and ...

Therein lies one of my problems.

Husband says, 'I will support you in your desire to lose weight because I know that being slimmer makes you more confident but I am happy with you as you are.'

Wonderful words, supportive, encouraging, loving. So why don't I settle for that? Rejoice and find confidence in my husband's love. 

A conundrum.

Danger Day 1

GrandChildren with us for tea so that meant fighting the urge to eat leftover pizza - or even crusts. More or less stood firm and only ate 2 of the Giant Buttons they had for a treat.

My strength of will is partly due to the ulcer I have on the side of my tongue, making eating - and talking - painful. An aside: have you ever tried catching your tongue to put bonjela on it? Don't bother.

Not much exercise today plus my FitBit needed charging mid-day so poor scores but not too bad eating wise.

Food Diary
2 weetabix
1 murray mint
left-over roast veg and cheese
2 buttons
a few Cheerios
tiny bit of pizza cheese and crust
noodles
stir fry veg
stir fry prawns

FitBit (at 10.07 pm)
3,170 steps
1.33 miles
1,420 calories

In which my resolve is tested

Uncle took us for lunch today before we went to an apartment viewing. I had decided before we went that I would have Caesar salad - but it wasn't on the menu. Nothing really healthy was so I settled for risotto. Yes, I shouldn't have eaten the garlic ciabatta but on the plus side I said no to dessert. Even though Uncle and Husband had it! Kudos to me.

And I had to have the 'free' salad bowl - because it was there - but resisted the coleslaw and potato salad although I did have one dollop of dressing.

Food Diary
2 weetabix etc
1 banana
mushroom risotto
garlic ciabatta
salad
date flapjack
1 banana

FitBit (at 7.10 pm)
12,526 steps
5.24 miles
1750 Calories