Food diary
Weetabix
banana
kiwi
crunchy nut flakes
cherries
bits pizza crust
baked potato
salad
coleslaw
cheese
orange

FitBit (just before bed)
4,888 steps
not many miles
not many calories

Just the usual

Food Diary
Weetabix
Crunchy nut flakes
banana
lump cheese
macaroni cheese
peas
small piece rhubarb cake
stewed rhubarb

FitBit (10.34 pm)
12,793 steps
5.43 miles
1,922 calories

When exercise doesn't count

Food Diary
weetabix
cherries
crunchy nut flakes
cherry tomatoes
baked beans on toast
grated cheese

FitBit (at 7.42 pm)
5,744 steps
2.45 miles
1,448 calories

I wasn't wearing it for a while this morning while it charged but I did Thrive circuits tonight so I'm sure I've actually used more calories than that.

Fat or sexy?

'I'm fat and horrible!'
'No, you're not,' says Husband. 'You're gorgeous and sexy.'

Whom to believe? Me or Husband. 

Obviously I want to believe Husband but then I look in the mirror or grab a handful of belly flab and groan again, 'No, I'm not gorgeous!'

Husband loves me just the way I am, however that is. I love me when I'm slim and confident. Yet sometimes I can feel good just as I am. And then I'll say, 'Blow it! Let's eat cake.'

But then by bedtime or maybe sooner I'm berating myself for my weakness and I am returned to the pit of self-... hatred is too strong a word - imagine me looking down my nose at myself as I would at ... no, I hope I wouldn't look down my nose at anybody else (unless I'm being really honest when I'd say except maybe a contestant on Big Brother or something similar) the way I do at myself. 

Why do I do this to myself? Is it primarily a woman thing? Getting all deep and meaningful, is it because my father didn't want to know me leaving me with a sense of not being good enough as I was?

More importantly how do I stop doing it? How do I find satisfaction with myself?

Answers on a postcard, please. Or in the Comments box.

Not good but not horrendous

Food Diary
Weetabix
cherries
cherry tomatoes
crunchy nut flakes
banana
handful cheerios
salad
salmon, prawns, half an egg, grated cheese
orange

FitBit (at 9.55 pm)
13,060 steps
5.48 miles
1,945 calories

Weigh In week 7

The digital display on the scales is temperamental and this morning i couldn't properly read a crucial figure. Either I have lost a lot of weight (very unlikely) or I have gained even more (far more likely after two weeks of too much food and not enough exercise). So if I opt for the more realistic number I now weigh more than I did when I began the diet. 

It is very disheartening that two bad weeks carry more weight than five moderately good ones.

147.6 lbs

Food Diary
Weetabix
banana
Honey Nut Cornflakes
several cheese straws
2 squares chocolate
cawl and dumplings
orange

FitBit (at 10.03 pm)
15,742 steps
6.74 miles
2,096 calories

And there's more

Food Diary
Weetabix
Special K
banana
flake
lump cheese
cawl and dumplings

FitBit (at 10.30 pm)
15,297 steps
6.44 miles
1,991 calories